i still can't believe it. I pinch my arm and, yes, i'm awake. I got featured in this great amazing magazine "Advanced Photoshop". All this time i always looked up to everybody who's in it. All this time i tryed to be better, to be like on who's been featured in AP. Well, now i'm in it, i still don't think i'm better and i guess i always be looking up to those who are featured in AP. I never in my whole life thought, i could be good enough....and still, it's like a dream. I looked at the magazine about a 100th times and still don't realize it. I know somebody who would be very proud of me, only that somebody isn't there anymore. But i guess somehow, i know....he knows.
I also have to thank all my wathers, without you guys...i never would have been in it. It's you all that pushed me, the comments, the
's, it meant to me 'I can do it'. To get so many people watch me, was a sign...'Yes, i'm getting a bit better.' And still i'm very crytical about myself, i never think i'm good enough. That's why i try out a lot of new stuff and my art changes all the time...in my eyes 'I'm still learning'. I guess that day will never come when i will say, i'm done learning. Thanks again to all of you
please go and give `JunkbyJen
a big hug. She really needs it.
This is her story, it's also written in her Journal:Most of my dear friends here have knowledge of my 7 year survivorship of breast cancer. Yesterday, I was slammed with the news that my cancer has returned in my remaining breast as well as found in one of my lymph nodes. I'll know further extent of the spread, if any, once I have scans done next week. I'll be heading to surgery within the next week or so for another mastectomy. Another affair with chemotherapy will most likely take place after that. I'm full of mixed emotions right now, from fear to downright anger. My 7 cancer free years lulled me into a false sense of security and that absolutely sucks. As I told some friends earlier, the fear of recurrence never leaves you after a bout with cancer, but after such a good run cancer free, the fear lessens...then BAM!
She's somebody who's been suporting from the very beginning. When my artwork, wasn't even artwork...it was bad but she was there for me. She is such a loving person.